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Holiday perfection

One 11.5 Lb. Turkey smoked over Mesquite

Cornbread stuffing with Cranberries,raisins and sausage

Cranberry sauce

Cheesed mashed potatoes and gravy

Homemade Amaretto/cream pecan pie

Homemade Amaretto whipped cream

Key lime pie

Apple pie

Amaretto on ice

Red wine

Family and friends

Perfection

Funding for Shaylyn

So this is where it all started

I was at work on Oct. 21st when I got a call from my wife

I was doing irrigation service right around the corner from home (Thank God) and it was the call that no man ever wants to get

Her son who was 38 had just been killed in a high speed car accident outside of Tampa

I say her son because even though we have been married for 26 Yrs. I did very little raising of him

But anyway, that was the start

Then, the week before Christmas our Daughter Shaylyn who is 36 calls to inform my wife that she has adrenal cancer

Bear in mind that she has 2 children and just lost her brother

I say ours because even though she is not my blood, I have raised her since age 8 as my daughter

Anyway, she also has tumors on her kidneys and spots on her liver that are most likely also tumors

She was hospitalized for 2 weeks because her blood pressure was out of control and she was seen by a specialist

She was supposed to have laproscopic surgery to have the tumors removed immediately

That was weeks ago

Unfortunately she is uninsured and medically needy and no doctor will touch her

She will have to wait until an endocrine surgeon  decides to donate his charity

Or not

I live in Florida in a county that has the highest unemployment rate in the state and own a business that has been drained over the past 6 yrs. to nothing

We as a family are in dire straights

Without treatment Shay is destined for a short life with a lot of suffering

I don’t know if it is pride or denial but she will not quit working to go on disabilty

And at this point the process is probably too long anyway

The surgery may or may not save her

I don’t even know

To tell you truthfully I don’t even know what it costs

But I can’t sit and do nothing

I haven’t asked her approval yet and don’t really care

I have a link below for paypal to donate

I don’t know how to get a button so it is just a link

I don’t use paypal for anything other than buying so any funds donated will be earmarked

Even if you don’t donate I would sure appreciate you passing this on

If anyone needs my contact info to verify the the veracity of this leave me a comment and I will send it to you

 

https://www.paypal.me/FundsforShay

Update: Here is a go fund me link if paypal doesn’t work: gofundme.com/p5kymvxe

Update 1-23: Apparently there is an intermittent problem with the pay pal link. If it does not work, my email is Eatgrueldog@yahoo.com. Leave me a comment if you need USPS. I no longer care if I am anonymous. If you don’t have paypal send me your email and paypal can invoice you.

Update: I have been trying to individually thank those that have donated but my e-mail keeps screwing up. If for some reason I don’t get back to you know that what you did was greatly appreciated and you have my most heartfelt thanks.

Update : Shay found out about this site an hour or so ago and was ecstatic that people were helping her out. So far, minus snail mail, $ 1545.00 has been raised. I thank you all. I now have a plan since an insurance agent left me a comment and contacted me. Instead of some crazy some, I am after enough to get her insured and pay her deductible.

I am still waiting on numbers and will post them when I have them. So far it is looking like $420.00 a month and a $1600.00 deductible.

Even if another dime doesn’t roll in, I am eternally grateful to those that have found the kindness to help us out. One way or another we will make it work.

Update: I do have an asset if anyone is interested in land in Florida

I have an 80′ X 120′ lot on a 6 mi. long island in the swamp with a delapitated mobile on it

I will sell it for half the value it is listed as or for whatever

http://www.citruspa.org/_web/Datalets/Datalet.aspx?sIndex=0&idx=23

 

 

Lies in the hospital room II

It was fucking terrible
Probably the worst thing I’ve had to do in my life
I couldn’t look at her
The life drained from her young face
Killed by life
By child molesters
By her whore of a mother
She looked at me and smiled
Asked me if I would come back and see her when she was better
But I knew that there was no better
There was no later
I had to leave the room
And let hot tears pour onto the cold and sterile tile
Before I could answer
I lied
I lied
I smiled and kissed her goodbye
Knowing that it would be final
And said goodbye

Yeah, I know I am a downer. This whole deal has just brought back my niece Amber to me from 2014

It’s been a hard couple of years

But hey, A reader actually requested some poetic writing.

It’s therapy, so screw you

🙂

 

If you have not seen the post previous to this, Please go to it.

 

 

Funds for Shaylyn

So this is where it all started

I was at work on Oct. 21st when I got a call from my wife

I was doing irrigation service right around the corner from home (Thank God) and it was the call that no man ever wants to get

Her son who was 38 had just been killed in a high speed car accident outside of Tampa

I say her son because even though we have been married for 26 Yrs. I did very little raising of him

But anyway, that was the start

Then, the week before Christmas our Daughter Shaylyn who is 36 calls to inform my wife that she has adrenal cancer

Bear in mind that she has 2 children and just lost her brother

I say ours because even though she is not my blood, I have raised her since age 8 as my daughter

Anyway, she also has tumors on her kidneys and spots on her liver that are most likely also tumors

She was hospitalized for 2 weeks because her blood pressure was out of control and she was seen by a specialist

She was supposed to have laproscopic surgery to have the tumors removed immediately

That was weeks ago

Unfortunately she is uninsured and medically needy and no doctor will touch her

She will have to wait until an endocrine surgeon  decides to donate his charity

Or not

I live in Florida in a county that has the highest unemployment rate in the state and own a business that has been drained over the past 6 yrs. to nothing

We as a family are in dire straights

Without treatment Shay is destined for a short life with a lot of suffering

I don’t know if it is pride or denial but she will not quit working to go on disabilty

And at this point the process is probably too long anyway

The surgery may or may not save her

I don’t even know

To tell you truthfully I don’t even know what it costs

But I can’t sit and do nothing

I haven’t asked her approval yet and don’t really care

I have a link below for paypal to donate

I don’t know how to get a button so it is just a link

I don’t use paypal for anything other than buying so any funds donated will be earmarked

Even if you don’t donate I would sure appreciate you passing this on

If anyone needs my contact info to verify the the veracity of this leave me a comment and I will send it to you

 

https://www.paypal.me/FundsforShay

Update: Here is a go fund me link if paypal doesn’t work: gofundme.com/p5kymvxe

Update 1-23: Apparently there is an intermittent problem with the pay pal link. If it does not work, my email is Eatgrueldog@yahoo.com. Leave me a comment if you need USPS. I no longer care if I am anonymous. If you don’t have paypal send me your email and paypal can invoice you.

Update: I have been trying to individually thank those that have donated but my e-mail keeps screwing up. If for some reason I don’t get back to you know that what you did was greatly appreciated and you have my most heartfelt thanks.

Update : Shay found out about this site an hour or so ago and was ecstatic that people were helping her out. So far, minus snail mail, $ 1275.00 has been raised. I thank you all. I now have a plan since an insurance agent left me a comment and contacted me. Instead of some crazy some, I am after enough to get her insured and pay her deductible.

I am still waiting on numbers and will post them when I have them. So far it is looking like $420.00 a month and a $1600.00 deductible.

Even if another dime doesn’t roll in, I am eternally grateful to those that have found the kindness to help us out. One way or another we will make it work.

 

 

Larissa

I thought of her one day

Walking in the woods

Between the sun and shade

My wild child

My little Celtic beauty

Beautiful and strong

Her blonde hair

Flying in the wind

With a smile on her face

And mine

We had raced through

The narrow streets

On roaring steel

Wanton daredevils

Without fear or care

I smiled as the wind

Ruffled through my hair

Gently whispering memories

And wondered

Where

My wild child

Had gone

I know I suck

I have been laying off of the blogging lately

I have had a death in the family recently and I have been redirecting positive energy towards my family

Now is not the time for constant negativity

So for a while I will have to continue to suck

I am sure that soon enough I will be able to go back to being the dick that I usually am

Off tho kidnap some gran chillrens

Stay safe everybody and if nothing else enjoy some happy time with the family. I am off to steal a grand kid for as long a time as possible.

Lies in the hospital room

My words became roses
And made bouquets
To brighten her room
Beautiful red roses
Without any wilted petals
Of sorrow or fear
I left them laying
Strewn carelessly
About her bed
And left the crying
For the cold hallways

Now I’m worried

What me worry?

All of a sudden, things have changed. My once forsaken and hideous finger has decided to do miracles. It has re-grown a tip, producing skin and tissue at an incredible rate. What on Thursday was a nasty zombie finger has become by Monday, pink and healthy.

One small section still needs to cover over, less than a pencil eraser, but I can tell that it is done. Finger drama gone and finished. I have a cabin booked for the week of Christmas in the N.C mountains and it would seem that I will not be spending my time eating pain pills with a newly amputated finger. Instead it will be fireplace and hot tub and time to catch up on reading.

Oh,yes and a bottle of 18 Yr. Scotch.

And then there is the Christmas tree in my house; It’s hideous. Really.

My wife is known for the elegant statement that she makes yearly with her beautiful creations. But not this year. The tree looks like it is in bondage and being punished for its misdeeds. There is so much garland wrapped on it that you can’t see the lights underneath. It is actually more of a garland stand than a Christmas tree.

But it was done by my grand daughters with smiles and laughs and delicate fluttering fingers. One I have never met, the other, the little love of my life, I haven’t seen in 8 Yrs.

Yeah, 8 Yrs.

We are doing the house all up for them so they can have a Christmas while we are gone. Real Christmas’s have been far and few between for these two.

I know that I need say no more on that subject.

But why worry? Why now? When everything is going so good?

Well, that’s the point. Everything is just going too damn good.

And that makes me worry.

Judith

I always wondered where her love went
It was like it was bled from her
A slit vein that ran dry
I was the only one that she gave it to
And I was young and greedy
And I think that I took it all
Used it up
A hungry pup nursing at the teat
And there was none left over for anyone else
She became withered and dry
And by the time her own children came
That love had been replaced by hate
Maybe it had just been killed
And that hate was like the darkness
That is already in a room
Just waiting for the light to be turned off
And then it takes over everything
It didn’t help
That it had been infused with heroin along the way
Shot sweating late at night in a seedy room
Or in the parking lot behind the strip club
But something had turned that love to hate
Solidified it in her veins
Until she was nothing
No voice
No heartbeat
Nothing
She became a statue
Just hard stone
And the sad part is that she had four babies
Who tried to nurse from her cold stone tit
And tried to get some of the love that I had
But it was long used up and gone
And they had to try and survive and live
With nothing to feed on but that cold hate
And they all survived for the most part
Except for Amber
Poor Amber
In the end, I think the hate finally got her

A final update on Amber

Amber was a special soul who was injured very early on in life. On Saturday afternoon she found her final peace and rest. She was resting comfortably in her home with her family. She will be missed by all who knew her.   A heartfelt thanks goes out to all of those who helped her and her family in this time of need.